Mommy moment

I look in the mirror and scare myself sometimes.  I finally have realized I'm closer to not 21, than I am to 21.  Then, I add in the circles that have developed below my eyes, and the fine lines around them.  I don't know why, but Emma has found it important to tell me lately that I am closer to 40 than 20.  Sigh.

Anyway, our mornings are crazy!  I cook all the ingredients for Josh each night and have moved my showers to bedtime so I can at least say I am clean each day.  When we wake up, I turn on Barney for Josh and Kate while I puree Josh's foods for the day and put blobs of it into the frying pan to make his "pancakes."  Danny and I tag team getting everyone fed, packing snacks and lunches for the day, and getting everyone dressed.  More often than not, some one requires an extra diaper change.  Emma's school starts at 8:00 and Josh has to be at some therapy each day at 8:00, except Fridays.  When 7:25 hits, I hurry to brush my teeth and hair and throw on some clothes while Danny loads the kids in the car.  The goal is to be driving by 7:30 most days.  I've given up on makeup that isn't thrown on in the car when I'm in the drop off line at Josh's school.  I think I'd have to introduce myself as Bonnie's sister if I ever showed up to therapy in makeup.

Last week, Josh had an 1 1/2 hour appointment with the allergist.  I was throwing on my clothes in my usual fashion.  I recently bought a few new tops and saw a black one I didn't recognize.  I couldn't remember buying it, but proceeded to put it on rather than the old one I wear weekly.  It seemed a little big, but I knew I couldn't credit anymore weight loss since that's come to a hault.  I was a block from Emma's school, looking down at my shirt when it dawned on me - I was wearing my black top to my new pajama set!  No time to go home.  I sat in the allergist's office for almost two hours in my pajama top.